Decisions, Decisions....

Its been awhile. I think its sufficient to say that I fail at this blog stuff. Oh well.

I can't believe its almost the end of the month. Fortunately, I'm ahead of my normal game- I have had the kid's costumes for 2 weeks now. Normally, I'm getting them right about now. So yay for me!

For the last few weeks, I've been debating on joining some mom's club my city has. Basically, they get together and hang out, but they also do stuff for the community. Here's my issue: I suck at making friends. At first, I kind of stutter and watch myself, to make sure I'm not offensive or something. I have to read them first. Then, I kind of open up- in a guarded way. Then, it either goes two ways. I either get really attached to them and start telling them deep stuff (of course, this isn't within 5 minutes of meeting them- it normally takes them opening up to me first), or I keep it distant, and we just talk about random, every day stuff. The 2nd part can always lead to the 1st, but its usually by their doing. I'm not much of a do-er in these instances.

I haven't had a whole lot of friends with kids, so this could be new and fun. On the other hand, this could be similar to a PTA debacle, and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. They only meet once a week, so it isn't as if I'm signing my soul away or something.

Still, I don't know.

I haven't really attempted to make friends since we moved here. Lets be honest, even when I lived back home, I still didn't have a whole lot of friends to do stuff with (mainly because I had kids and they didn't). More than likely, I'll make some friends, then I'll push them away or something (which is something I tend to do).

I. Don't. Know.

I've been thinking about this for weeks, and still haven't come to a decision. I can attend two meetings before they make me pony up the annual membership dues (which isn't much- it covers supplies for the kids, snacks, etc.). I feel dumb for even thinking about it for so long. And for hashing it out here- haha. Oh well.

Seems like this decision is for another day.