A letter to someone

Hey Doll-

I remember when I found out about you- no one had told me yet, but your mom had left a pamphlet on our table about pregnancy. At first, I remember being panicked, mainly because I thought it was my mom who was pregnant. When they finally told me it was your mom, I was shocked, but happy.......excited actually. When you were born, I was at camp. I remember talking to my mom on the payphone outside the candy shop of the camp, and being so bummed that you came while I was away. I had also been hoping you'd come on my birthday, but you didn't. You always were a bit headstrong.

You were the first baby I had really ever truly been around (at least at an age where I could feign interest in a baby). I was scared of you at first (I was pretty young), but I quickly got over that and completely adored you. You were perfect in my book. I got a Polaroid camera (don't laugh, they were all the rage that year) the year you were born- needless to say, I spent a lot of money on film (and by me, I mean my mom). We were always close. You could never pronounce my name right, so you called me Lo-Lo (unfortunately, that happens to rhyme with ho-ho, and your mother takes great delight in that, even to this day....so thanks for that). I always had so much fun with you- you were such a happy kid, and so ornery....but in the cutest of ways. You were with me when I filled out my first job application, you were with me when I got in my first car wreck, and you were there when I graduated high school. You were there on all the random days in between, from dancing to Destiny's Child in my room to borrowing all my kid movies from me. For a few years, we were practically inseparable. You were as close to a sister as I had ever had, and I loved you dearly.

Things happen. People move away, people kind of lose touch, but we've always managed to stay in contact. I may not talk to you daily, or even weekly, but I know you are there. At one point we lived right next to each other. For a while I lived with you. It probably hasn't been difficult for you not to have me close to you, since you're still pretty young, but its been hard not to be close to you.

When I look at you, I see this insanely beautiful girl with such huge potential. Your entire life is right in front of you, ready to be attacked head on by you. You are an amazing spirit, and I hope you see that in yourself.

No matter what, I'm here for you, day or night, no judging (and lets be honest, I don't hand out the "no judging" card very often). I love you, and I'm glad you're here. Thank you for being such a blessing in my life.

Love,
Me