Rambles about Life

I wish I understood life and the world just a little better. We've all heard that life isn't fair- they definitely were not lying when they said it. Life isn't fair. Life can be amazing, but life can also suck really bad.

I can't stand hearing the news anymore. There is always so much chaos and horrible things going on. I get that life isn't fair, but I think there should be ground rules of sorts. You shouldn't be allowed to mess with kids or babies. No one should be able to harm a child. There should be no miscarriages, no infant deaths, no child abductions, no molestations, no child endangerment or abuse. Children should simply be off limits.

I don't think its fair that some people struggle to have children, while others pop them out like a human gum ball machine. I don't think any mother should ever be told that her child has passed away, whether it be 6 weeks after conception or the "child" is 34. At no point should a parent ever have to dig up dental records of their child because cops think they found their jaw bone.

Parents have to worry about raising their children right. They shouldn't have to worry about the creep down the street abducting them on their way to school. They shouldn't have to worry about whether some person is going to get all high and mighty and beat the snot of them because of their sexual preference, or their economic status, or because of the clothes they wear.

I love our country to pieces, but sometimes the citizens of the country make me sick. Circumstances that the citizens are forced to deal with make me sick.

I have a friend who helped me through my losses. I tried to push her away so many times, but she never gave up on trying to help me and make sure I was ok. Now she is faced with possibly going through the same ordeal, and I have no idea on how to help her. She shouldn't be in this situation. I shouldn't be in this situation. It isn't fair. There are so many uncertainties in life, especially in pregnancy. You shouldn't have to worry about whether your baby is safe inside your own body. You shouldn't know what it feels like to have your body do the opposite of what it is supposed to do. It really isn't fair.

I firmly believe that God has a plan for every life he creates. He knows your story before you're even conceived. It is times like this where I struggle to figure out God's take in it. Does he know from the start that a baby wont survive the first few weeks? Does he create a life knowing that he'll be holding it in a short amount of time? I don't believe that God is spiteful, so I don't believe that he would give such a gift just to take it back. I don't know, maybe I'm missing something.

Sometimes life punches you in the gut. The only thing you can really do at that point is to drop to your knees and pray. I fully believe in the power of prayer and God's ability to create miracles. I suppose as long as I have that belief and hold it near, anything is possible.

I'm gonna go hold my babies extra tight, all while shooting a prayer up to God asking for his protection and strength. He has a plan, I just wish I knew what it was.